New Life

Originally, maybe half a year ago, I created this blog to share music and talk about the business in general. I think I am going to change that. I am challenging myself to be more open and honest about the difficulties of my life and how I am getting through it. Hopefully I will be able to inspire others to be brave enough to face fears and maybe get some peace of my own.

So here is all the information a reader needs to know. I left the University of Kansas last semester in order to check myself into a treatment center. I am a strong person but unfortunately at that point my eating disorder started to consume my life. I have struggled with eating for about 8 years of my life. It was never about the food or my wanting to be thin--I just wanted to appear perfect even though I was struggling. Perfectionism can really kill a person because it is honestly unrealistic. I am now at a proper weight and eating. It is still an everyday struggle (every meal struggle) but I can now manage it.

My goal for this blog is to educate people on mental illness and correct its bad reputation. Just because I am mentally ill doesn't mean I am crazy. I am currently still in a treatment center because unfortunately I haven't slept in a few weeks. Over this time period I am going to document about what I have learned that day and about some interesting people I have met (in the most confidential names---excluding names).

Hopefully this blog will help me get over my fears in life. Currently I am afraid to go back to school because I left in a very unorganized manner and without a lot of explanation. I think a lot of my friends had an idea of what was going on but they only knew the tip of the iceberg. Quite honestly, I wasn't even sure of my root issues at that point.

For those who are passing judgement on me I don't care. 1 in 4 women will have struggle with some sort of eating disorder within a lifespan.

Here is some music to keep everyone interested! These songs are some of the ones that I just blast when I am freaking out and just dance away. They are random so hopefully I have something for everyone.

Ramble On by Led Zeppelin

Manic Depression by Jimi Hendrix

Bennie and The Jets by Elton John

Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots Pt 1 by The Flaming Lips

Hiphopopotamus vs. Rhymenoceros by Flight of the Conchords

They're Everywhere by Izza Kizza

Hip Hop Saved My Life by Lupe Fiasco

Soul Flower (Remix) by The Pharcyde

Protect Ya Neck by Wu Tang Clan

Sound and Vision by The Sea and The Cake

For The Widows in Paradise, For the Fatherless in Ypsilanti by Sufjan Stevens

Rebel Rebel by David Bowie

Orange Sky by Alexi Murdoch

P.S. I am not the best at computers, despite my families natural abilities towards it. I have no idea why some of the songs are bolded, so I apologize for the awkwardness.